Update on life to this point

Well, It has been almost a week since I last wrote on my blog. A lot has changed since then and I am hoping to update everyone on the progress.

Friday

I went to work as usual and did my hour work out. I had a great day that day because of the Zumba video. After work I paid some bills as usual then went to babysit my adopted kids (my friend’s kids) and made dinner for them and for the girls that night. I also go some good leftovers from my friend (healthy) and I used them for my lunches. I don’t like it when food goes to waste. Anyways, I got to watch Super 8 with my friends and it was interesting. Then took a friend home that night.

Saturday

I got up and made breakfast, cleaned house, then went shopping the rest of the day. I finally got all healthy food for the month and it is good. I got Hazelnut Peanut butter made with skim milk and it was lower in fat. I got honey, fruits and vegetables. I feel better for buying healthy foods. I am hoping it works out better for me. I got more food then that but I won’t list it because it is too long. I also got another friend’s son a birthday gift that he would like for his party. I also picked them up and dropped them off too. I did some homework for my Letter Y for my graphic class. Then I went home late that night because I hung around to talk with her and another friend of mine.

Sunday

I got up and made a good breakfast for my brother and he girlfriend and myself. Then I made whole wheat banana bread with my brother. He was very helpful with getting ingredients to make the bread. I also pre-made my veggie and fruit bags for the week. These are my snack bags I eat every two or three hours in between breakfast, lunch, dinner. Then I went to work out on my Wii Biggest Loser Challenge. I had to reset the profile and I got weighted again and I found I weigh 292.8 which I was sad because that means I still haven’t lost weight. I still did my workout, but I was upset by the total. Luckily, my brother was there and he surprised me when he started working out with me. I was glad that he was working out with me it means that I am getting through to one of my family members. After the workout I decided to pre-make dinner so when my parents come home I could just through it in the oven. I made a great dinner I thought, that was until my parents got home. My mom had the right to ask me if that was all I was making for dinner, which I made cheeseburger pie with a salad and the whole wheat banana bread. They wanted more and she was telling me that he was going to make more. I was pissed off and got into it with my mom. I thought it was disrespectful that she wouldn’t wait until I was done with dinner to find out if she was going to be full or not. I told them that I was going by the portion size and my parents were telling me that wasn’t enough for them. I told them that after dinner if they were still hungry they could go out to the kitchen and make something else. They ended up adding more veggies to the plate and I was okay with that choice. After the fight I wanted to so badly eat a lot of food, but I drank some water then had a mini bag of popcorn which it the shot nice. After that I did some homework then went to bed.

Monday

I went to work as usual and did my workout of an hour and then went to school.

Tuesday

I woke up really trusty and I drank 1 liter of water within 2 hours. Then I went to work and did an hour and a half workout that day. I didn’t know it was that long, but I drank another 1 liter of water again. Then after getting cleaned up and had a veggie snack I had 1 liter water again. I decided not to go to class because of the weather/icy roads. I was glad because my teachers have been making me stay until the end of class that I was not getting enough sleep after class and work in the morning. So I got caught up on my sleep. I started to do one of my DVP classes and the files weren’t working for me. Luckily, I know someone in class that is nice enough to help me and my teacher. I emailed both and I am hoping to hear back from them soon.

Wednesday

Well, today I felt sore, but that is because I have been working out every day now. So after working out I feel better. I am trying to get things organized for this term to get things done on time for a change. I am trying to change my habits this year. I just hope it works out this time. I also felt great this morning. I feel my clothes are getting bagger and I feel slimmer each day I wake up. It is a nice feeling to feel that way now. Well, I have to go, but here are my tips for the week/day:

Weight Lose Tip:

Pre-made your meals or snacks for the week. When you pre-make your meals/snacks for the week it helps on not making impulse buying that is unhealthy to you. You can also keep track of the amount of the food and how many times you want to eat during the day. If you have a busy schedule then this is your solution. Plus it will help save you money.

Dating Tips:

When trying to look for someone, be honest with them and don’t play head games. For example, if you are looking for Marriage and the guy wants just a friends with benefits thing then you should let them go. Being honest with yourself will help you in the long run from not getting hurt as much. Plus you’re not fooling yourself or the other person.

Suckie days

Well, today was weigh in and it wasn’t good at all. I gained 1.8 pounds. Now I am at 291.2 pounds. I don’t know if it is because of my monthly friend came last night or because of what I eat this week. So I have one week for the period to be over and as for the food, all I can do is watch what I eat. My friend lost 5 pounds and I am glad for her, but I feel like crying because I didn’t lose anything. Now, I know in a previous blog I make sure you look forward and not back on the problem and dwell on the problem. I am looking back but trying to figure out what I did wrong so I won’t gain more weight next week. I got some get advice from my friend which I will be using for this coming week.

So besides my weight making me have a bad mood, I am having my period and it’s the first time in 3 years since I have been off Birth Control (BC). So I am not used to the pain that comes with it. The BC usually helped with the pain because it would make it shorter. So now, since I am single again I decided to get off the BC because it was a waste of money. I wasn’t going to keep paying for a product I wasn’t getting any use out of it. I have been single 11 months now and I have not had sex since my last relationship. Now some people would go crazy for not having sex for that all, but I am okay with it. I have toys, but it’s still not that same. I do miss the touch of a man, but I will not let that be the reason to just have sex with anyone. I am looking for a meaningful relationship with someone and I am hoping to find that same thing in a man. So yeah life sucks a little right now, but I am working on myself. While I do that maybe the right man will step up and talk to me or call me. I never know.

So, I am going home after work and planning to work out then go pick up a friend from work. Then back to school work again. I feel that working out helps me with my emotions and sadness. Well, tomorrow will be a better day.

Weight Loss Tip: Emotions:

Emotions can make you want to eat more and more. It can also make you feel let down my for the choices you picked, well look back and don’t do it again. Don’t dwell on it because it will just cause you more problems than solving them. Writing and exercising are a good way to lose weight and stress. If you have a hobby that makes you feel good then do it.

Here is a website for celebrates that love their thin or big bodies.

http://music.yahoo.com/photos/singers-who-love-their-bodies--1326310584-slideshow/a-photo-1326310313.html

Dating Advice: Lonely:

Whenever you feel lonely, put on a movie. It can be a chick flix or an action film. Go out and do something that makes you happy. When a guy sees you doing something you enjoy then more than likely he will come over to you. Or be brave and go up to him.

Here is a website that everyone that is single should watch:

http://screen.yahoo.com/free-love-advice-party-edition-27706960.html

School has started again, BLAH!

So, I got this title from a friend and yes, I have started school too. Unlike my friend her schools are closer to her. My classes are an hour and a half away from where I live. So I spend about 8 hours in 3 days on the road sitting down. I wish I could be working out in that time. Luckily my boss lets me work out when I am at work. I pick my dates from when working out. I usually work out Wednesday through Sunday, but this week out worked out Monday then Thursday through Sunday. I decided to work out Monday before class and I lived it, but since I worked out Tuesday through Monday last week to this week and because of the working out all week long I over work my muscles which made me sore. So I decided to take Tuesday and Wednesday off from working out. I am cleaning a house all day tomorrow and that is a workout because I never sit down once and I am lifting a lot of heavy things. Then on Friday I go back to my regular work out which is walking 30 minutes then whatever video I want to learn for 30 or more minutes.

As for the food lately I have been trying to eat better. I make a big breakfast now that gets me through snack time, and then Lunch is more veggies less carbs and the same for dinner too. All I am doing is cutting back on my portions, but I will find out how well I am doing when I weigh in tomorrow. So most of my eating is on the go and I found some snacks that were good on the go snacks to eat and filling too. Fiber one bars with a half a fresh green pepper with water. Or a Whole wheat bread with reduced fat peanut butter and a teaspoon of honey with water and half a green pepper. A fruit cup and a low-fat yogurt with water or another is a Fullbar meal replacement with water. I don’t suggest staying on the Fullbars because your body will get used to the Fullbars and not want to lose weight. It is all about portion control and watching your Calories, Fat from Calories, Saturated Fats and dietary fiber. Fiber fills you up more than anything and it help with a good digestive system too.

Anyways, while I drive to my classes I move to the beat as much as I can when I drive. I got up early today because of the fact I had to go to the damn car shop again because the stupid car is still smelling up my vent with a burning mental smell. Mind you that I never had this problem before it got fixed. SO I am hoping the finally figure out the stupid thing.

As for classes they are going smoothly for now. Love life has its ups and downs right now, but I have to believe that I will find someone this year or god will find him for me. Now time for my Weight Loss tips and Love Advice.

Weight Loss Tip:

You should exercise at least 5 days a week. Taking 2 days off for your muscles to heal will help and soreness you have been experiencing, but make sure you go right back to exercising. If you don’t then you will be in the same situation as usual. So keep exercising and keep moving forward.

Dating Advice:

When talking to a guy or a girl please DON’T BRING UP SEX OR ANYTHING TO DO WITH SEX ON A FIRST CONVERSATION. If a man brings up the sex talk first then a woman knows that the man just want sex from her and nothing more. If a woman brings up the conversation first then more than likely she wants something serious with you and not just sex. So men BE a gentleman and you may get a woman that will rock your world.

Attitude and how to change it.

Life is difficult at times and I think I am hitting that point in my life. Well, life for me right now isn’t what I thought it would be. I thought I would be healthier (I’m Not), Be married to a great man (I’m Not), Have kids (I don’t), Be on my own from my family (I’m Not) and working my Career job (not yet). So life has through me for a loop, but I am working on it. My cousin once told me that, “Just focus on you and the rest will come with time.” So I am taking that cue from her and running with it.

See lately, I have been focusing on my weight lose more, which I am still doing. But I also need to focus on my classes (which start today) because when I was focused on someone else I lost my way on my grades and withdrew. There are other reasons for me withdrawing for example, computer problems and no motivation. So now since I am single again and it’s a new year I am going to focus on my health, school, work, and life. If it works out then maybe a man will find me. I am also changing those negatives to positives this year. This year will be a year of change for me. So here is a positive look on the things I listed above:

Being healthier: Well I started back on Tuesday December 27, 2011 on a new weight lose and my mind is set this year on doing it. So far I lost 8 Lbs since then. Thursday I will find out if I have lost or gained this coming week.

Be married to a great man: Even though this hasn’t happened yet, I have to leave that one day it will happen. I am a hopeless romantic and believe that love will find its way no matter what type of men I may date. Plus I am a catch.

Have kids: That is okay. I will have them in time with the right now, but for now I borrow 3 or my friend’s kids to babysit and hang out with to understand what I am in-store for when I do have kids.

Be on my own from my family: I am currently going to school so that one day I can be on my own without my parents assistance.

Working my Career job: This is why I am focusing on the school so I can get my career job, but the current job is nice too and I may get certified in that too. I think education is important and anyone that doesn’t think education is important then ask them what their job is.

So besides changing my attitude, I am also trying to change my lifestyle too. By trying to make better choices, then from what I did this weekend.

Weekend:

So I had a great weekend. I went on a 2 hour walk with a close friend and it was nice going outside for a change compared to my basement and treadmill. I am thinking of going on a couple of hikes this summer and I am hoping to get a bike so I can go bike riding. I also did another short walk on Sunday with that same friend and her kids. It was great. I also did a bad thing by going to Frankenmuth and having some birthday cake with ice cream. I did my best on portions, but I have a feeling that this week is going to be bad on the weight. If it is then I will learn NOT to do it again. I will learn from it and keep moving forward.

Weight Loss Tip:

Keep a positive attitude. Whether it is in life or weight lose/gain, keep a positive attitude. I know it can be a struggle sometimes, but learn from your mistakes and don’t do it again. Attitude can change everything.

Dating Advice:

Sometimes you have to just stop looking for someone and start focusing on you again. It’s not a bad thing to focus on you because once you do that maybe someone from the opposite sex will notice and come up to you and start talking to you. Once you get your situation figured out then you will be in a better situation for someone else.

Busy Schedules

Hello everyone, well today was busy day. My day started off great. I got up at 9 am and then decided to go back to bed because I don’t sleep in much anymore to much stuff to do. I got up at 11 am because of my cat tiger meowing at me, which I love. I ate 2 eggs, coffee with creamer, and a giant green pepper. It was good and I like it. It kept me full for most of the day. I got a text from my friend to go for a walk in the park and I went. It was a long walk (2 hours, with time to play at the park for her son), It was nice, but the wind was too cold for my liking. I drank a lot of water to satisfy my hunger until the walk was done, but once I got home I had to go to the bathroom, lol.

I ate again around 3 pm and had a half a turkey swiss sandwich with 1 cup of homemade turkey soup. I was on the phone to Comcast about the internet, we had to call for a tech to come later this coming week. My brother and I went to McDonald’s restaurant real quick to use the internet there (because ours was down) to get a coupon for tonight’s dinner to Frankenmuth Bavarian Inn Restaurant. I got us both parfaits it was the only thing I wanted that were good for us and some water too. Went home and got dolled up for dinner.

Got to dinner just fine, but during dinner I thought I made some good choices. It’s hard with food but I did it. It was family style dinner. The first thing they brought out to us was breads, crackers, and jam. I went for the crackers with butter and then waited. The next thing was the salads like cole slaw, pinto bean salad, cranberry relish, chicken pasta, and soup. I had one teaspoon of each, but 2 cups of soup (fighting the cold from my family) and waited again. I had coffee with cream and sugar plus a water to drink. When the main meal came out I had 2 pieces of chicken (most of the breading taken off of the chicken. It had a lot of fat on it), 2 teaspoons stuffing, 2 tablespoons of vegetables, 2 teaspoons of stuffing, 2 tablespoons of potatoes with little grave (too much fat), and butter noodles. Now I love their butter noodles. It is my favorite. SO I know I had to much of it, but I only go once a year so I thought it was ok. Then for dessert I have a scoop of peppermint ice cream with lite fudge syrup (too much sugar) and 2 ginger snap cookies.

After there I went down stairs to their shops and got a lot of recipes. I pick them up so I can start my collection for when I move out and on my own. I even have a collection of healthy and non healthy recipes on my computer. I found out that I do love wine and hopes to one day have my own wine cellar. We left the shops and went for a walk in River Place. We were hoping to see the medieval store, but it looks like the closed, but we looked around and I found a used book store there. I found a book for my mom for Christmas. I do my shopping early. After that got gas then went to Wal-Mart for my brother’s fiancé to get a card and birthday cake for her. Her birthday is today. I came home and relaxed the rest of the night.

Tomorrow is busy all day. Walking, babysitting, cleaning, and getting things ready for school. So with my busy schedules like this it gets me worried when I don’t eat ever 2 hours because my metabolism isn’t going to work like it is now. I now have to figure away to make sure I eat. I also told my brother to help me out. When or if I get depressed again I will need him to help me get back on track. Since I am the only one in the house right now losing weight then I am an example to the rest of my family. My family is like me, they like to see physical results instead of being told. So that is a lot of pressure on me, but I know I can do it. It’s just trying to get them off their asses to do it for themselves is the problem.

Weight Loss Tips: When you are feeling hungry ask yourself some questions:

When Did I last eat?

What did I have to eat?

If you did eat, then what was it that I ate that is making me hungry again?

If you are hungry after you just eat like an hour ago, it could mean that you are eating empty calories and not enough protein. Protein helps fill you up more and it’s good for your muscles. Empty calories are foods with high fructose corn syrup and sugar. If you crave something sweet go for a type of fruit.

Also, you could be thinking that you are hungry, but what your body is craving is water. The more you drink pop and sugary drinks the more you are going to be trusty. Replace your pop intake with water, but slowly. It helps thinking your brain does not want the sugar and later will want just water.

Dating Advice: Sometimes if you have been looking for a guy or girl. You keep getting bad replies then the best thing to do is take some time for yourself. Focusing on yourself can be a hard enough job, plus if the right guy comes along then just start talking to him.