Jobs are hard to find anywhere in the world right now,
but I think it is a little harder to find out in Michigan. The only reason I
want to stay in Michigan is because I have family and friends here. That is the
ONLY REASON, I don’t like Michigan winters because it hurts my wrists (Carpal
Tunnel) which they freeze up in the winter. I would like to move out of state,
but I will look for a job here first. The only other reason I would stay in
Michigan is if MR. Right (The One) found me and I know we would be going places
in a relationship. Anyways, jobs are hard to find and finding them in a
location that is good with good pay is even harder. So I am hoping to get my
resume updated and my portfolio redone before next spring and to have finished
a few movie/miniseries before classes start again and a Demo Reel done too.
Now for my personal life which has been crazy the last
three months, but here it goes anyways. Weight has been an issue with me since
I was a kid. About 6 months ago, I decided to change my life with weight. I
decided it wasn’t going to control me anymore and it was working up until 3
weeks ago. I was losing weight (34 pounds at the time), but then a guy found me
on one of the dating sites I am on and we clicked. I was still working out
because I was doing it for me and not him. There was some bumps in the road
with the relationship, but we got through it or so I thought. I had told him to
take some time for himself and he said, “NO, NO, I’m Fine.” So I took him at
his word, well during this time I helped him with washing his clothes and
helped clean his apartment. Now, I never do that kind of thing for a guy unless
I know I have something with him. Well, After helping him out and saying the 3
words, I LOVE YOU then it went downhill after those words were said, but not
from me. I stated that I wouldn’t say them first. He did during sex. I said it
in return because I felt it in my heart. Well a week later, the guy tells me
that he feels like crap and doesn’t want to date me anymore because he needs
time to think things through. He said he would contact me in 3 weeks. Well,
this Thursday is 3 weeks and I am not looking forward to it. I told him I have
let him go and I have. Since that time, I have forgiven him. I feel that
holding a grudge will not help me at all. In turn of letting him go, I have
been eating like crazy and not watching my food intake. I think I have gained 5
or more pounds. I just getting over the ex and when he “needed time for himself”
he left me during my hell weeks of school. That is 2 hell weeks of classes. I
call them hell weeks because it is my make it or break it time for getting all
homework done (which I have been behind in since the start of classes) or I
fail and have to pay for classes out of pocket. On top of all that, I was to
get my monthly visitor and I didn’t want to weight in those last 2 hell weeks
of school because of the ex, period, and overeating. Now that school is finally
out (Thank YOU GOD!) now I can get back to me. I can get back to writing in my
food journal which I started this week (which isn’t easy, but learning again).
Now getting back to me is the hard part, as soon as
school got out I went to work all week (day and night), which I love, but what
I didn’t know was going to happen was that my folks had some car trouble
upnorth and no one to help them. I offered to help because they are my family.
SO I did, but I did a no no and got into trouble. Now I am hoping My boss will
understand. If not, guess I am back to looking for a job, but anyways that is
life.
So I have been keeping busy with my friends and trying
new activities. The first being on Sunday, I went with my one of my Best
Friends to a renaissance festival in Vassar Michigan. It was small and nice.
Their clothes were more affordable and so were the products. We watched a fire
show with lady and Gypsies dancing. It was nice. Then later that night, My
friends joined a competition. I don’t think I can do it, but I will give it a
shot. Congrats to my friends that did do it. I am proud of them. As for more
activities that I have been doing, I trying rollerblading, but my rollerblades
are so old that they cracked on me, now I have to get them all replaced. I
played tennis and I found it to be very fun. I think I will be trying the sport
more this summer. I think I will be trying swimming, water aerobics, soccer,
and some more when I can think of them. I will be putting them up on here and
tell of the experiences. I am going to lose the weight I gain and then some.
Also I am getting some personal projects done this
summer besides the ones I listed up above, I am planning to do some arts (latch
and hook) rugs, reading a few school books and 3 personal books. One is a
romance (since I have none in my life, I can at least read it), second is how
to read men, and the third is a series about the Hunger Games (my friends want
me to read it. So I will give it a try.) I am also going shopping/garage sale
shopping for my future home. I am also taking a few vacations this summer.
Well, that is all I have for now, but I will keep everyone updated on my life.
